Senior Portfolio Seminar

CRWR 453 Spring 18

April 26, 2018
by odonnell18
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Maggy’s Final Gerard Response

“Rabbit” feels like the most “personal” essay we have read in this collection. “Records” kept us at a distance. In other words, “Records” felt more constructed than “Rabbit.” This second to last essay came across as more deeply felt, and perhaps that is because these experiences feel more present/recent considering Gerard’s grandma’s state; furthermore, the state of Gerard’s husband. The shift the essay took (quite frankly, the whole collection) was really quite astounding to me. The diagnosis of her husband, and how Gerard copes with it, is a huge part of Gerard that was withheld from the reader throughout the entire essay and collection. When she finally mentions the diagnosis, it is only for a moment. All of the characteristics of Gerard are present – strong, brief scene choices and intentional quotes – but what really struck me about this essay is how much she really opened up her internal world (as opposed to the external world she has been sharing with us) to the audience. I also think The Velveteen Rabbit works beautifully in this essay.

“Before: An Inventory” is definitely an experimental type of essay. As Emma mentioned in her post, Gerard seems to be tracking backwards from her thirtieth birthday. I don’t know if I believe the “before” just has to do with this milestone birthday, but as someone who has not yet turned thirty, perhaps it is enough to inspire this inventory. There are some weird repetitions and trends. Most notable are a “sexually frustrated cat,” dogs, and all sorts of other animals and bugs. When we read “BFF” at the beginning of the semester, another non-traditional essay, JGB had wondered if another experimental style would end the collection. Evidently, it has, but I wonder what the intent of this was – from the editor or Gerard. Of course, we’ve had a lot of discussions about an editor’s successes and failures in the ordering of this collection.

April 26, 2018
by kirven18
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Kollin’s Response to “Rabbit” and “Before: An Inventory”

I loved that Gerard, on the first page that begins the essay “Rabbit,” describes her grandmother’s house–the old stacks of Playboy, boxes of liquor, and letters written on old, brittle paper– in such vivid, evocative detail. In reading her descriptions, I thought mostly of my grandma’s house– the bar, vinyl records, and old family photographs. It is when reading descriptions like this that I find myself most engaged. But more than that, I loved that she used descriptions of her grandmother’s house to first introduce her grandmother and, later, to introduce her grandfather.

I’ve noticed she does this often throughout the collection. In this essay, Gerard uses her grandfather’s dying to talk about his early life, which then helps her introduce in the essay his children–her father, aunt, and uncle. (284-85) This is an interesting way to organize an essay. I also found Gerard’s descriptions of her grandfather’s last days really visceral–the bed sores, oral thrush, and his delirious and painful sleep. (287)

In writing this I thought about a question JGB asks often–what is this essay, story, or poem really about?–I felt this essay was very much about the ways in which we grieve our loved ones, the lies we tell them, and ourselves, so that we can live comfortably, and the ways we can prevent our own suffering or the suffering of others. (293) Gerard’s grandmother grieves her grandfather, and Gerard ultimately grieves her husband, who we find out has been diagnosed with testicular cancer.

It seems in the second essay, “Before: An Inventory,” that Gerard is literally, in a hodge-podge but poetic kind of way, taking inventory of the things in her life. It sounds like she’s written down all the things she noticed “before.”

 

April 25, 2018
by thom18
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Emma Thom: “Rabbit” and “Before: An Inventory”

Sunshine State began with a personal account and it ends (well, almost ends) with another personal account. “Rabbit” tells the story of Gerard’s grandparents; there’s no embellishing, nothing fictional, just her own barebones experiences. Where the first essay seemed to be confessional, I’m not sure what this essay is trying to be. It’s not a story about grieving or moving on, it’s sort of a story about family, it also doesn’t seem to be a story about aging or death. We’ve discussed the idea, in fictional stories, that perhaps the title doesn’t necessarily have to have any resonance, metaphorically at least. I began to wonder if maybe Gerard’s essays function in the same ways — is she just writing them for the sake of writing? Do they have to mean anything? She leaves us with a moment of sentimentality when she falls asleep on her father’s lap, a moment of embarrassment when her grandfather’s pants are spotted with urine, and a moment of trauma when her grandfather’s colostomy stoma opens revealing his intestines. We experience the sadness of her grandfather’s death and this heartbreaking exchange:

“You said he was cute.”

“He was,” she said. “Then he went and died on me.”

Gerard describes the cruelty of old age, her grandfather’s cancer and her grandmother’s stroke, with graphic detail, but this isn’t, by any means, an investigative report. The ending seems to be a stretch as well — connecting the stuffed rabbit her grandmother gave her with the children’s book, The Velveteen Rabbit. I understand the obvious connections, her grandmother gave her the rabbit, there are ideas of companionship and devotion in the book, but I just want her to tell me what she’s doing with these things.

I also won’t pretend to know what’s happening in the final story “Before: An Inventory.” The essay is written as an inventory — a complete list of something: goods, property, the contents of a building. But is that it? She mentions cats and dogs several times, one mention of the seabird sanctuary, several mentions of slugs and plants and nature. There are so many different kinds of animals, from the bizarre “beetles mating on the neck-high corn” and “alien mouths of barnacles” to the mundane milk cows and house cats. There’s something hypnotic about the strange lists of random and sporadic objects and images. It also seems that she begins with her 30th birthday and moves back in time to memories of her childhood. The form itself is intentional and perhaps it’s meant to encapsulate everything that inspired this collection of essays.

April 21, 2018
by gullicksen18
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Lydia’s Response to “Snow Blind” and “Gift”

“Snow Blind” and “Gift” were the last two stories in Elizabeth Strout’s Anything is Possible. “Gift” tells the story of the Applebys directly after hearing about Annie from Dottie at her bed and breakfast. The point of view in this story is different than many of the other stories that stayed tethered to a single character. In “Gift” the story did not stay with one character the entire time. I think it works for the story, though, since it is focusing on the way the family is dealing with their father’s homosexuality and each character is responding differently to it.

Charlene is an interesting foil to Annie as is the comparison between their two fathers.  I think Strout handled that really well as well. She alerted the reader to what was going on without coming right out and saying it and without Charlene having to say it, which would have felt untrue. The different plot lines added depth as well to the story. There was a lot going on. There were other relationships that are causing tension as well, like Annie’s relationship with her mother. The family dynamics are strange but interesting.   

Annie was very different than she had been portrayed in the previous story, which seems to be true of most characters when their star in the own story. We find out much more about them and they are never what they seem to be to the rest of the world.

Time was handled in an interesting way in this story. It covers large amounts of time, focusing on a few key moments, jumping through a lot of Annie’s life.

“Gift” continues previous themes of poverty and class with the character of Abel. Abel is an interesting character because he represents multiple classes throughout his life and is judged very harshly as coming from money. A lot of Strout’s stories are dark in the ways in which characters are dealing with problems but this story almost seemed headed in the direction of a horror film for a moment.

My favorite thing about this story was how vividly I could see the man in the theater, his body language, his personality, his way of being. I thought he was really well-done as a character.

As I was reading this story, I was wondering why Strout chose to place it last in the collection of short stories. It embodied several themes that we’ve noticed throughout the book, but I would love to hear what other people thought about the placement of the stories within the book.

April 19, 2018
by thom18
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Emma Thom: “Stone Mattress” and “Torching the Dusties”

After reading the titular story, I think it’s safe to assume that some element of feminism is present and important in this collection. A lot of it is ridiculous and farcical — the three old women plotting against another man and Verna murdering men with the help of Viagra — but “Stone Mattress” was the story I had some difficulty reading. We begin with a somewhat bitter, aging woman. She knows that she’s getting older, but she seems to enjoy her newfound confidence and her silvery-blonde hair. She seems just fine with her age. Her mother is described as a “grim-faced,” emotionally unavailable woman, but it’s her reaction to Verna’s horrific and traumatic experience that is particularly painful. Because Verna is looking back on this experience years later, and we as the reader know that she’s turned out ok (can you call a murderer ok?), the story is easier to take in. I’m not sure I would’ve wanted to read it without the ridiculousness, without her previous marriages and murders. Atwood has carefully orchestrated this story — in what world does a physiotherapist marry her patients only to have them or help them die of exactly the ailment for which they’re being treated?

The stromatolite, the ancient fossil used to kill Bob, lends itself to the theme of aging — or the rejection of aging — in these stories. Dinosaurs are old, fossils are old, and many of Atwood’s characters are also old. Which leads me to the final story: “Torching the Dusties.” This story was equally difficult to read. She captures the atmosphere of Wilma’s nursing home with a terrifying clarity. On page 246 she writes, “If you look demented they’re more likely to treat you as if you really are. So better to avoid the lipstick.” If you’ve ever been in a nursing home or an assisted living center, there are too many elderly women with dark eyeshadow, bright red or pink lipstick, and a bad brown dye job. This story makes me afraid to age. (I also have to note that the first time my dad told me of my grandmother’s macular degeneration, I truly thought he’d said “immaculate.” I’m sure she wished that were the case). Unlike in the first story, “Alphinland,” with Constance, I don’t get the sense that Tobias and Wilma are going to be ok. Wilma’s vision has turned people to blobs, although she seems to see these apparitions with absolute clarity. There’s some kind of amazing irony in the idea that Wilma can now see crowds of dancing people more clearly than she may have seen them when her vision was perfect. (I also did some reading, and while there’s no treatment for Charles Bonnet syndrome, the patient is able to fully understand that the hallucinations are not real and therefore can somehow maintain sanity).

I noticed a strange kind of repetition in both of these stories, a sort of projecting into the future. In the last few pages of “Stone Mattress,” Atwood writes: “He will receive…, he will brush his teeth, he will adjust…” etc. The same sort of repetition occurs in “Torching the Dusties” on page 251. Then she ends with ambiguity: “If, that is, she pulls it off. Will she or won’t she?” We know that Bob is dead; we know that Verna has been careful in her planing; but why are we deprived of a conclusive ending?

April 19, 2018
by odonnell18
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Maggy’s Atwood Responses (April 19)

I find it interesting that in a collection of stories that often questions the submissiveness/passiveness of women in reality or perception the title story would be “Stone Mattress.” Verna, like most of the other women, carries some kind of male-imposed damage. She has made it her life’s work to kill off men, which she blames the OG Bob for turning her into a murderer. She also manages the greatest “defeat” over the man who damaged her by murdering him. Other female characters have achieved this, but in less sinister and perhaps less direct ways. I feel like Atwood may be asking us to look at all of the women as the true achievers in these tales. Or, as we have also discussed, did an editor simply pick this story to title the collection?

It also became clear to me while reading the last two stories that aging and death are incredibly prevalent themes in this collection. Of course, we have discussed this in class, but the misogyny in this collection has been so obvious that I tended to read the book from a more feminist perspective – which we have also discussed. I think death and old age being so apparent and problematic in the last story is intentional. Atwood is asking us to pay attention to themes by bookending the collection with “Alphinland” and  “Torching the Dusties.” (Or another editor’s choice?!) Assuming that this is intentional, the stories mirror each other through the two POV characters who are a little “off their rockers,” so to speak, yet keenly aware of their circumstances – loneliness, old age, past years, and looming death.

For me, one of the stand-out sections of “Torching the Dusties” is on page 256-257, when Wilma is innocently listening to the news and is hearing a list of natural disasters occurring across the country, which then leads into a listing of main news event that briefly mentions “an old age home has been set on fire by a mob wearing baby masks.” This was  previously foreshadowed on 255 and is later developed on 260. Atwood creates suspense. On page 270, Wilma “eats the chocolate greedily.” I find “greedily” an interesting word choice in the context of the story.

Wilma is also an interesting POV character because she has to rely on others to know what’s occurring around her, yet she does not feel unreliable. I believe that is because although she can’t see and has hallucinations, she is still very sharp and keenly aware of herself and her environment (242, 248, 254, 255, 261).

April 18, 2018
by gullicksen18
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Lydia’s Response to “Stone Mattress” and “Torching the Dusties”

These stories, “Stone Mattress” and “Torching the Dusties,” were some of the stranger stories in the collection, but both continued the themes of unlikable men and old people that have been present in almost every story so far.

Death threats have been present throughout the collection, but a character finally cracks and becomes violent, and I think it was good to put that towards the end of the book, and then the story about burning down a retirement home also should probably go near the end. The stories become more and more chaotic as they go along, and it makes a lot of sense for the placement of the stories. It would be a bit of a letdown if the book itself began with a story about a violent protest movement and then moved backwards to a woman sitting alone in her house during a storm.

There were some great moments of humor in these stories, though, which was a nice break from the darker aspects of them. One of my favorite lines was from “Stone Mattress.” It says, “some have females attached to them and she eliminates them on principle: why work harder than you need to?” (202). I thought that line was just funny, and humor is always nice to keep things interesting.

We had two very different female protagonists in these two stories, Verna and Wilma, and I imagine that was intentional. Both were older women who were interacting with an older man, but they were so different. Verna, obviously, was a murderer, but Atwood still managed to make her seem like a bustling old woman out for a cruise. She also still makes Verna sympathetic, I think, despite the plot, because of Verna’s circumstances. Wilma was much more likable. She understands why people hate her generation; she recognizes the shortcomings of Tobias; she believes in climate change — all of these things make her seem open-minded and likable.

Tobias was unlikable in so many ways. He was pretentious and controlling, manipulative and possibly a murderer. But he takes good care of Wilma throughout the story. The ending, of course, reinforces our negative view of him, but he takes Wilma with him. He escorts her to the dining hall and then home again every day. This makes him a much more interesting character than had he been purely evil.

Bob was barely present in the story. He comes across as a pushy old man the few moments that we see of him in a scene, but most of the reason why the reader dislikes him is because of the stories that Verna tells about him. He’s definitely not likable, but if we simply saw him at face value, talking about his wife and kids, we’d probably like him. That then brings into question the reliability of Verna as a narrator. She is the only reason we hate him. Are we justified in that hate? I think the text indicated to me that I could trust it and trust Verna’s version of the truth, but it is a question I had while reading.

April 17, 2018
by kirven18
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Kollin’s Response to Limón pp. 79-101

As I said last class, upon my first read of Limón’s “Day of Song, Day of Silence,” I thought mostly of a similar poem, Katherine Larson’s “Statuary.” Not only were the contents of the poem similar, both about some large, exotic bird, but both also had a similar cadence. This is true also of the poems we read for today. The first poem, “Adaptation,” reminds me of a particular few lines in Larson’s poem “Love at Thirty-Two Degrees.

The astronomer gazes out

one eye at a time

to a sky that expands

even as it falls apart

like a paper boat dissolving in bilge. (33-37)

I am reminded of this poem mostly because Limón uses similar imagery. She writes:

Nights when the moon

was wide like the great eye of a universal

beast coming close for a kill… (4-6) 

I also found it interesting that in the second poem from today’s reading, there was less abstraction. The poem seemed more narrative than the previous one or the poems we spent time a few weeks ago discussing: “Bellow,” “The Noisiness of Sleep,” and “Drift.” I wonder, were there any poems you felt particularly drawn to for their abstract, or narrative qualities? Why might Limón have chosen “The Conditional” to be the last poem of her collection?  I thought it might also be helpful if we each took a few minutes to discuss the poems we were most drawn to.

I wondered, before reading this collection, if race might figure prominently in it. The answer is no, concepts of race don’t appear often in her collection, but there is mention of Limón’s Mexican heritage in the poem “Prickly Pear & Fisticuffs.” I mention this only because it’s something I struggle with in my own work– writing about the thing that most defines who you are. Do you feel this poem is successful?